Thursday, June 29, 2017

June Favorites

The latest episode of Post Punk Party I love discovering new bands; A Projection was my top pick out of the bunch.

Depeche Mode is my favorite band, so I was already aware that Martin L. Gore is a huge fan of The Mission. However, somehow I missed the release of this collaboration because I've been spending more time away from Facebook. Anyway, I'm playing catch up and the entire album is really great.
The Mission is one of those bands that I like but for some reason I forget that I actually have them in my collection. Need to mix it up more, I guess.


A fun cozy series I've just started. Halloween, magick, and a murder mystery.

I'm also reading and working through Living Earth Devotional.
As a pagan, I'm supposed to be all in tune with nature and stuff, but honestly? The older I get, the more it seems that summertime just drains me of energy and I don't feel connected spiritually at all. Each day of the year has a page with a prayer, craft, recipe, or even ideas on how to reduce your carbon footprint. I like it because it's not a spellbook and doesn't rehash Wicca 101 material for the millionth time. It follows with the themes of the seasons and how you can align with them psychologically and spiritually. The traditional Wiccan sabbats are mentioned, but it really focuses on connecting with your local landscape and spirits rather than a God/dess or a pre-set festival structure that may not be in tune with what is happening in your climate.

I've been watching a lot of documentaries and youtube channels about veganism. While I have mixed feelings about committing to it, there is a part of me that is just beyond disgusted with the way animals are treated, and horrified about the crap that is being injected into the meat we are being sold. I'd like to at least try to limit my consumption to 2-3 times a week, and maybe even get meat from local farms if possible. For sure, I will be definitely making the switch to vegan self-care items and cosmetics. Anyway, I made these fries and holy shit they are amazing!!

Can't wait for Midnight, Texas to air! So far, I've really enjoyed this book series by Charlaine Harris. Looks like this will be more action packed since the books have that slow, southern vibe that might not translate as well to TV. Hopefully, it doesn't disappoint.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Coming home, "In darkness you'll be mine..."

They say "home is where the heart is".
Doesn't help much when you a somewhat of a gypsy and also a Gemini with a wide variety of interests and ability to take on different "personas" when the situation calls for such a thing.
When life circumstances get in the way of your ability to express yourself (having to move across the county and live with parents at 32 after a bad breakup) or your ability to even know who you want to be, or who you are at your core (depression is a motherfucker), it truly feels like your soul is homeless.
I've recently turned 37.
Many things are going well for me at the moment, yet there are till missing pieces and hurdles to master. I asked for answers, for some kind of guidance or a sign. I was making progress in my life, but something still felt wrong. A few days later, I found some pictures of myself from my 20s.  That period of my life was probably the happiest I'd ever been. And not because I was young and partied every weekend or had dozens of male admirers. It was really just me being true to who I was, until I let other people convince me that I wasn't being mature, "normal", etc.
I remembered how creative I used to be and how I was much more into tune with my thoughts and emotions. And how music kept me sane through all the poverty, breakups, etc.
Suddenly, I found myself listening to old favorites that I hadn't even considered in years. Even went to a few concerts.
 Got a new pair of boots. Dyed my hair.
Began seeking out goth podcasts and youtube channels for inspiration.
A swipe of vamp red lipstick here, a dab of my favorite vintage oriental perfume.
 "Opium and poison, jasmine and rose.."
 Reading poetry on the L train rather than scrolling my facebook feed.
Perhaps it's not what you do that makes you feel good, but rather the intent behind it.
A lipstick is a lipstick, right?
Maybe, maybe not.
My journey into the realm of goth music and love of a dark aesthetic began when I was a young child. In the future, I plan on writing about that more in depth.
For now, let's just say I finally feel at home again.